Friday, November 12, 2010

And now for something stupid....

I hate those moments where you get caught up in something stupid... so stupid that it drives you crazy, and time seems to go sooooooo slow.... then it passes, and you look at your little one and hate that you wasted that slow time on something non-important, instead of cherishing the extended time lapse by gazing into your little ones eyes...

Why must time work like that? Why my attention work like that? I need to retrain my brain!!!

I am so tired of certain topics, and so over extended in certain areas... I am about loving my family, and supporting everyone in it. I love too much sometimes, and as the saying goes "No good deed goes unpunished"... well it seems to be the case lately. I can't let this negative emotion linger, or it will only manifest itself into a monster... a monster that I create in my own head.

Time to move ahead, no looking back.... positive lights are shining off in the distance, and I am gaining on them quickly!

Don't fret, get off your ass and do something about it!
- Miss Dray

Mucho Love!

Thursday, November 11, 2010

OuuuTTah

Dearest little love,

That's it... we've called it. Your first word is "out", or as you say it "OuuuuTah".
Man o' man are you just growing a mile a minute. Yapping all day, crawling from one end of the room to the other in seconds... you impress me more and more each day, Adrayn.

Also, for some reason when you were a newborn and not cooperative in the car, your Papa and I would put in the "Black Eyed Peas" and you would hush right up. Well the other day you were having one of those moments and we decided to try it out for old times sake and it still works!! You and your Black Eyed Peas... I think it's the bass, and the trance-like vibe. Maybe you can tell me all about it someday. :)


It's so hard to remember all these little details in time to run to the computer and put it to this blog. I am also curious how all these details, videos, pictures from your childhood will affect you in the future. I only had pictures, and maybe a bad video here and there, but this is a whole new world.

On another note... love is in the air! Your Papa and I are getting married soon! We have already chosen the date (1/11/11, because that's the night I met your Papa in 2008), and just to be extra cheesy we've chosen 11am as the time we'll say our vows. Something special has happened with the planning though, a dear friend of your Papa's has offered to marry us in our new home!!! How wonderful is that! So simple, relaxed, and this home will have one more fabulous memory to add to it's charm. Maybe we're the first to ever get married in this 1920's house! 

We plan to have an intimate open-house reception in the spring/summer so friends can celebrate the love with us in more appropriate weather.

So excited for what 2011 will bring, but am still soaking up the 2010 while it lasts.
I love you so much my little monkey. Back to given you some Mama love!

Mucho Love!

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

What a world....

Dear Adrayn,

Their will be moments in your life that you become so moved, that it feels like a rush of beauty, or a nauseous kick in your belly.

Your Papa and I just watched a documentary last night that was a wake up call to us.
It showed me how sad this world is that your great grandparents, grandparents and  your Papa and I have left you with. I'm sorry in advance.

Please always live knowing that the choices you make will fuel your future as well as your children's (if you choose to have any). It may be small steps, but your Papa and I have always been aware to certain topics and have thought of your future and made choices accordingly. I know it all can't be fixed over night, but I hope to always strive for better, and be aware... as hard as it may be.

You are a special little boy, and I can already tell that you will be a mover and a shaker.
Be a leader, even if for yourself. Empower yourself with knowledge and be aware so that you aren't ignorant or hiding from all the harshness and beauty that the world supplies.

I love you so much, and always want the best for you and our whole family.
Knowledge is power, and knowledge can set you free to be who you want, as I always want you to be who you choose... Papa and I will just set the path while you take your first "baby steps" and guide you to all sides of the story, and from then on you will create Adrayn.
I love you dearly.

Mama