Tuesday, September 18, 2012

The Waiting Game


7/30/12

I write this blog knowing that it will not be posted for another couple months or so... waiting to tell the little ones the news. However, I cannot not write in the meantime as so much is happening in baby land!

I had an inkling that something was "amiss" when the kids came to stay in early June, but postponed verifying until they headed back to their moms. Well, the answer was YES as of early July! That month came and went with the kids and I scheduled a visit with the midwife after the kids headed back to their moms in July!
That brings me to my first ultrasound Doc appt, which was 7/30/12.
I was told that my pregnancy with you was 3 weeks further along than your Papa and I had originally thought!? How does that happen? Your Papa is even more on top of my girlie schedule than I am and he was guessing later than I was!

I guess you can already be pregnant while you have your period... or that it can take a cycle or two for your system to figure it out? Wow, that was a shock to me as I already have a child in which no such circumstance happened. Always time for new experiences I guess?!

Here I am ... just as impatient as I was the first time.

My brain has taken on a mind of it's own yet again with internal conversation such as "What will your sex be? Will you be healthy? How in the hell will Papa and I financially manage?!"
Well I am comforted by the fact that my parents raised my 2 brothers and I on less than or at least equal to what your Papa and I have, and they had us all in one room as toddlers. We never went out to eat or went on annual family vacations (except Disney World when I was 8) and we were the happiest of children... at least to my recollection... good job mom and dad... no traumatic childhood memories pouring out in adulthood. You must have done an okay job! :)


We had Adrayn at the HCMC Birth Center in 2010 via drug-free waterbirth, but this time we are looking to do something even more "natural". Papa and I are researching home births! I guess it is covered by most insurance companies these days and it also includes a birthing tub if you choose... the best part is that you get to sleep in your own bed!! I've also heard that the midwives start a load of laundry on the way out... ahh... sounds like the most relaxing birth in my book! Hopefully that is something that we can make happen!

It was wild... seeing your little ones fingers, and toes... arms moving... waving "hello" to the camera. You seemed so happy in there, and so at peace. I will in no way rush through any moment for the next to arrive.


8/19/12


Here I am 18 weeks pregnant and barely showing. Presley came and went without a clue, and here Parker is unaware of the big news to come this September. I wonder how they will take it?
Parker mentioned wanting another brother, so maybe that is a sign.

So much love to give and share! We have our last ultrasound in regards to sex on 8/27... not too far away! I can't wait for Papa to see you, little one!
Papa and I have also chosen to have you in our home. I am more excited to have a home birth after experiencing a hospital birth, and the clinical visits thus far in my pregnancy have left more to be desired. Also, our home is where Papa and I were married... were Parker learned to ride his bike, where Presley concocts her magical baked goods, and where Adrayn learned to walk. I cannot think of a better place to be brought into this world?!
We have so much to be thankful for. Life is truly beautiful.

9/18/12

Jeremy is off to get the kiddos and on the way home tell them the big news. I can only imagine how it will go down... I'm sure it will be a shock, but I think that the drive back will give them time to process their own feelings about it.

We had the "find out the sex" ultrasound, and final appointment with HCMC as we have now officially signed with a home birth midwife!! YAY!

We will be welcoming our little girl, Sloane Dray Frandrup this January with much anticipation!
We had our first "official" check-up with Emme and Clare at Trillium Midwifery this afternoon (our chosen home birth caregiver). Such an amazing team and an instant connection for Jeremy and I!

I feel so blessed to have such beautiful options!! Now, we just need to convince our Health Insurance Company that the $15-20,000 savings by going with a home birth (which includes all prenatal and postnatal appointments as well) is worth fully covering (fingers crossed)!!!

Average "natural" Hospital Birth w/ appointments = $20,000 - $30,000
Average "natural" Midwife Home Birth w/ appointments  = $3,500 - $6,000

In the meantime Jeremy and I are paying what we can, and knowing that this option will soon pay for itself with the beautiful memories it will create in our beautiful home.

Love you my little Sloane... I feel your little kicks and taps in my belly and know you are as your name describes... a warrior. :)

Finally... I can post this!!!


Life is grand, Mucho Love!