I didn't ask.... but you did make me think

Arg... these pregnancy preachers are appearing out of the wood work lately...

"Get an epidural, you have to, don't be tough, no one can do it", "I hated being pregnant, no I wasn't ever sick, I just hated it", or "I had the most painful birth with 80 hours of labor"...
Seriously.. I am not asking these strangers for their opinions, why are they just assuming they can just shout them out at me?! I know what I can handle, and I know that I have certain goals in this birth plan. I am in love with being pregnant, and am in love with the baby that I am carrying on top of it.
I want every step to sink in, and marinate in my mind, as it all seems to be rushing by so quickly...

 Pregnant Lady | 24 weeks

I see all of my friend's children growing up so quickly around me, and I just want to hit the pause button! I just want Adrayn to be in my belly until I'm ready to let him go. I just want Adrayn to be a newborn baby until I'm done deeply inhaling his sweet scent.... these things just fly by so quickly.

Pregnant Lady | 25 weeks

I think back to when I was 19 and my niece Celeste was born... I remember taking a nap with her beside me, she must have been about 6 months old. I just remember slowly waking up to these HUGE gorgeous eyes staring back at me... so quiet, so gentle, just looking at my face as if to inspect every freckle and pore. Ahhh, and the smell, the smell of a baby... nothing can replace that smell. It's like a high...
These are the moments that are locked into memory, but have passed in time... it's hard to know that one day I will have the same memory of my little Adrayn...

 

(Celeste now: 11 years old)

I guess all one can do it just appreciate it all, stop and take it all in as often as possible, hold those specials moments close, treat the present as it is described... a gift, and hang on for the ride.

Mucho Love!

Soon...

Soon..... I will be able to have a Lavender Cosmo from Palomino (MUST try if you haven't!!!), and ALL the sushi I can manage to eat!!!

Ahhh.... sounds heavenly. I can't wait! Also, I know what kind of birthday cake I want next year!

I'm just having one of those craving days I guess! ;)

Mucho Love!

To my sweetheart...

Dearest Love,

I know things are about to change in our lives immensely, and I just wanted to take this time before all the chaos hits to let you know how much you mean to me.

 

 

I am so glad that I met you, almost 2 years ago now. I am fortunate to have such a talented and giving person in my life, and now the father of our soon-to-be son. I am very thankful when I wake up in the morning and see your beautiful hairy face next to me.

Thank you for rubbing my feet every night as I tell you about my day,  for caring so much about our little one that you cook healthy dinners for us in advance so that I don't have to, for being aware... you just seem to know when I am in dire need of a night out, or off, or in; for spooning me at 5:30 in the morning before I wake up for my long day at work, for arranging all the mortgage meetings and collaborations, and for every "I love you baby" that warms my heart.

I love your strong will (sometimes...) and your soft heart. You are a wonderful man that knows how to put a smile on my face!

I am truly one lucky girl that is completely worthy of such a wonderful man.

I know in times ahead that things will be difficult, and trying, but please know that I am always in your corner and believe in you. Know that I am your gal, and I've always been right here..

I love you dearly. Always and forever (said like Kip).
Mucho love, my sweet Jeremy.

Who is really blind here?

What an odd morning this one has been..

I was on my way to catch the light rail to head to work this morning at the butt crack of dawn. It's a bit creepy walking the 2.5 blocks in the early morning darkness.
On this particular morning I noticed a man. A blind man standing before the light rail tracks... the vibe that I immediately got was one of a lost puppy dog.

I was in a hurry, but I am who I am... so I did what I do. I stopped and asked him if he needed assistance. He said his name was Ernesto, and stated that he hadn't been to the light rail, and didn't know the drill. I then reached out and placed my arm around his and walked him up the ramp to the ticket purchase area. He proceeded to thank me and hand me his discounted ticket money (only .75 for someone with a disability) and I proceeded to purchase his ticket for him.
After some small talk about him heading off to some immigrant work program and the crappy economy he told me he would be back Wednesday and Friday this week. I told him I would assist him again if our paths crossed. He also said that he wanted to give me his number (I'm assuming only niceties, as I have no reason not to) and I stated "Too late, train is here" and the "ding, ding" approached.
This whole time I wasn't noticing the eyes on us... the quiet judging eyes. Once his train came, I lead him to his door then directed him by saying "At 3 o'clock is seating" and we were parted until further notice.
I then walked down the ramp to where I would catch my train heading the other direction... getting stares.... people were staring at me as if by assisting someone I was asking for AIDS or something?!
What's happened to us? All I see everywhere these days is H1N1 scare talk, and how to avoid people as much as possible. Texting (which is underlined in red as I type this because it's not a real word), Instant Messaging, Emailing, Facebook.... all these things are more of a mode of communication that our lips. I am totally guilty of this.. (as I blog)... It's just sad that when given the chance to actually be a human being, and show some tenderness to someone in need that people are not only distant, but actually look down upon it.


Ahhh okay, I will get off of my preaching stool now and let you all come to your own conclusions.
It's just amazing to me that some people have lost the "human" in them, and seem more like robots on the light rail. I can't wait until I don't have to be apart of the rush hour crowd anymore... the early mornings are scary, and it's not because of the dark.

Mucho Love!!

You put the treat in my trick!

Ahhhhh the cool air and smell of decaying leaves... I love this time of year!
So, I'm the kind of gal that likes to scare people, or at least make them laugh on Halloween with my costume.
Some years, I am something pretty, but lately I've had more of an urge to do the opposite... it's our one day a year to go bonkers as anything, why not be gross and scary... Pretty can be done any old time with make-up and a nice dress.

So this year I decided to be a dirty man with a beer belly, even though Jeremy and I were just dressing up for ourselves and taking the kids trick or treating. My intentions were good, but I came off looking more like a gay hunter man. Reasons this happened are: 1. I had James Bond (my dog) in my jacket since he was tiring from the walk, 2. I couldn't quite remember I was a man and kept using my female voice.
I actually got a "Whats up man" from some guy walking with his kid, and said "Hello" back in my female voice... I scared the life out of him!! If Halloween is about scaring... I sure did some scaring! I calmed the man by following up with "Don't I make a pretty man", after his chuckle I could sense a sigh of relief.

 

Jeremy did the kids make-up... and a WONDERFUL job at that!! He's amazing!! Look at these pictures!

Presley (Vampire)

 

Parker (Devil)

 

Group Picture

Papa's quick zombie make-up

Okay.... Now on to baby talk!

Pregnant Belly 21 Weeks (depending on who you ask.. Midwife or Ultrasound Tech)

All is well with the pregnancy. I have been very fortunate in not getting sick. My back is starting to ache a bit more as my stomach grows, and I now am working full time at this temp job so all the running around in heels and dress clothes isn't too comforting either.
Adrayn is moving like mad in my belly these days... can't slow him down.. he will be a handful when he's ready to see the world. Hope we're prepared!!

Oh yeah, we stopped at Target to check out the clearance Halloween goodies and got James Bond and outfit for next year... he will be a lil' hot dog! Can't wait, I'm sure I'll want to just eat him up!

Hope you all had a wonderful, and safe holiday...

Mucho Love!!

Lovely day

If I could wake up to Bill Withers singing "Lovely Day" to me in person every morning I think it would be impossible to have any negative emotions!

I woke up this morning with some wonderful feelings. I felt a little "tap, tap" in my belly... so odd, but comforting even though it's not me doing it!
This belly sure has popped the last few days! The only way I can describe the way it feels is this. Fill your bladder up completely with urine, and take away the pain. It's just like some weird numb space filled with liquid. I have found it a bit difficult to get used to the numb feeling, such a secret void...

Thanks Parker for taking this picture of me!!! I needed one!

I have a mid-wife appointment next week! I am much more at ease from last week regarding the puzzling ultrasound information. Friends, and google have eased that mystery a bit.

This site was quite comforting in regards to the topic.
http://www.babycenter.com/0_placenta-previa_830.bc

So, it's not wonderful news, but it looks like that in 90%  of cases all is good. Keep your fingers crossed for me!

I am just in such a lovey mood today. I am sooo grateful to all of my wonderful friends that have eased my mind, and been so supportive of me in every way. I am so emotional when I think of how lucky I am to have people like all of you in my life. It's crazy to think of all  of the "how we met" stories... sooo many!
I remember Jaime in the duplex and how we would sing songs with the neighbor Mike and Jessica Diaz... Lissa in paint class, and I still remember the painting of the woman in the clouds! Alissa at my uncle's BBQ with my old elementary friend Amy, Amanda at Denny's and that fabulous duplex with NO matching furniture, Sherrise at Harvey's... pudding wrestling not long after, then introducing me to Farah... Marija, oh Marija... I miss those girls nights at our bachelorette pads! Ahhh so many memories... I could go on forever!!

Thank you all. I feel more fulfilled  everyday just thinking about all of you. I may just be an emotional pregnant lady, but I am a grateful one!

I hope you are all having a lovely day, and if you're not... just think of Bill Withers. :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sYi7uEvEEmk&feature=related

Mucho Love!

Results are in...... and it's a baby BOY!

Ahhhhh what a breath of fresh air! Now I can finally get a healthy nights sleep!!!

I have woken up every morning with some dream of me announcing it's a boy, or it's a girl, and then I can't get back to bed because my mind wanders, then I run off to pee for the 5th time... all over and over... and at least now I can put my mind to rest about the baby's sex, and that he has 2 arms and 2 legs with all of his digits intact, and no cleft lip (adorable lips I might add)!

Something puzzling and something good happened at the ultrasound this morning.

Let's start with the puzzling. The ultrasound technician kept stating that she had some concern for the placement of the placenta... then said that my doctor, or mid-wife would look into it further and talk to me if it needed further attention. Well... I have an appointment with my mid-wife on 10/26 so I'll know more at that time. Hopefully all is well with baby, and I can still have the natural birth I was hoping for.

The other thing that was good was that Jeremy and I immediately agreed on a name as soon as the tech left the room. He said "What about Adrian" and I said... I love it but let's spell it with my last name Dray, so it's "Adrayn", and the middle and last name were no-brainers, as they are meaningful family names.

Adrayn David Frandrup is our baby boys name!! How common is that...to agree so quickly?!

We had already had a beautiful girls name in mind, but no boys names... so this is really crazy!

I really need to get someone to take a profile belly shot of me soon! :)

Parker and Presley were almost as excited as I was this morning. Their uncle Jamie was here to babysit bright and early at 815am (thank you Jamie!!) and each of the kids were hoping for the same sex as they are... Parker wanted a boy, and Presley a girl. Presley has already had her wish granted by her mother (a baby sister), so Parker was still brother-less... until today! It was important to me that the kids felt great about the news, and included in everything. I told Parker that he's like my first son, and Presley that she's like my only daughter, so they are excited to share with baby Adrayn, and love the name too!

Jeremy and I thought it would be fun to bring pink and blue candy home, and whichever candy papa grabbed out of my hand and gave them was what their sibling is! They loved that idea... mainly because of the candy factor I"m assuming....

Oh, also I forgot to mention... I'm a whole week farther than I thought! I was thinking around 18.5 weeks, but according to measurements I am 19.5 weeks!! Adrayn is coming sooner than I thought!

I hope I start to feel his little kicks soon, I guess 20 weeks is common for that feeling to start. I'm just happy that I saw him moving like mad around today via the ultrasound with a healthy heart-rate and "normal" skeletor look to him. It's pretty amazing!

Papa Jeremy was the first to notice the sex organs... but they weren't so difficult to spot! This boy is huge! Sorry for my crude language, but it's true! Maybe it's the stage of growth, but for a little 10 ounce guy he's doing alright.

I would post an ultrasound picture, but only got a horrible print out on computer paper, and they don't look too great, so you'll have to wait to see the real Adrayn in March.

I am so excited, it is all so real now!!!!

Oh, and that "Intelligender" test was wrong! :(

Well folks, I'm off to play with Parker and Presley.

Mucho love!