I started this blog to document my pregnancy with Adrayn. It has grown to be so much more. I am not timely in my writings... as I truly only write when I feel the need to. From time to time I will reflect back on older posts, as it can be a beautiful reminder of how much I've grown.
This blog was named "electrobabymama" as a joke. I was documenting my pregnancy via the internet... and the name was born from that. Looking back, it seems oddly fitting as I am the mother to a child whom has Epilepsy: aka wild electric storms in his brain. What a wild journey this blog has been. The most beautiful, and difficult times of my life. I hope this blog marks another story of beauty.
I was going to wait to write this, but I cannot live in fear, and the moment has struck me now. Now, I live for the moment.
Friday.
THIS Friday, Adrayn will be ONE YEAR seizure-free.
I honestly never knew this was a possibility when I was in the thick of it.
I was almost resigned with this new way of anxiety-ridden life. A life of helplessness.
I am still coming to grips with the precious moments lost to seizures, and depression. Moments lost with an infant girl due to many overnights in the hospital. Moments lost to a son that was in a deep haze, post-seizure. There were many losses that year. Day by day, and moment by moment we made it through that hellish phase.
I cannot dwell too much in that year, or I it can be emotionally consuming. I will acknowledge how I have grown from it, and how I will begin each day with a grateful heart.
I have been more than fortunate with blessings this year. I know many respond with "You deserve these wonderful things"... and to that I say "Yes I do, but YOU do too!". This is something I am still in the beginning phase of learning, and will always hope to improve upon. I am stronger now, and the tools I have gained in my journey will only help me to persist, and succeed.
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| 25 Weeks Pregnant with Adrayn |
Friday.
THIS Friday, Adrayn will be ONE YEAR seizure-free.
I honestly never knew this was a possibility when I was in the thick of it.
I was almost resigned with this new way of anxiety-ridden life. A life of helplessness.
I am still coming to grips with the precious moments lost to seizures, and depression. Moments lost with an infant girl due to many overnights in the hospital. Moments lost to a son that was in a deep haze, post-seizure. There were many losses that year. Day by day, and moment by moment we made it through that hellish phase.
I cannot dwell too much in that year, or I it can be emotionally consuming. I will acknowledge how I have grown from it, and how I will begin each day with a grateful heart.
I have been more than fortunate with blessings this year. I know many respond with "You deserve these wonderful things"... and to that I say "Yes I do, but YOU do too!". This is something I am still in the beginning phase of learning, and will always hope to improve upon. I am stronger now, and the tools I have gained in my journey will only help me to persist, and succeed.
Let's look forward to a year of bliss and beauty.
Mucho Love,
Mama Dray
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