Sunday, February 21, 2010

Cry Baby | Part Deux

Here I am again... crying like a baby, with only 2 weeks to go!
This time it's due to lack of sleep, and when presented with the opportunity to get some I lay here with my mind running in circles. Hopefully blogging will help.


38 Weeks Pregnant


I cry because my mom isn't here. She and my dad are still in Texas, and I just feel so emotional and a tad uncomfortable these days. I want Adrayn to come, but feel guilty for even wanting that when they aren't here.

I cry because I'm eating 5 Fig Newtons and I just got done eating an orange and a granola bar... I feel fat for continuing to eat the sweets...

I cry because I feel pathetic for crying with a mouth full of Fig Newtons...

Arg.. what is my deal?!

I need to sleep, but can't seem to get there... I'm way too antsy, and can't sit still.
I think I'll throw on a movie and have another orange. Maybe all this crying will put me down for a bit.

This stinks!


Mucho Love!

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

I get by with a little help from my friends...

I'm overloaded with friends today!

Morning tea with Satya, and pregnancy talk galore... then off to Jaime's for 2 tons of baby boy clothes (which she graciously carried out to my car!) and home baked oatmeal cookies that were delicious and only 40 calories on top of wonderful conversation with an age-old friend... then off to visit old co-workers and get compliments left and right... finally ending with me heading out in just an hour to meet Robyn and the kiddo's for a late night dunk in the hotel pool that Robyn so wonderfully offered to me after she drove 4+ hours to bring the kids to our doorstep tomorrow since I'm ready to pop!

My big belly (37 weeks) and Satya (around 25 weeks)

 Jeremy and I being dorks as usual

Ahhhh... yes, this day is tiring but I am totally feeling the love all around.

Thank you all for your selfless giving and wonderful words. I am truly a lucky gal and know that this little man will be raised around wonderful people that are filled with love.

Time to find that bikini and show off this baby bod! Hmmm... wait... it doesn't fit like it used too... oh well, I just won't post any pictures of that.. haha!

Mucho love!

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Cry Baby

I feel like I was slapped in the face with the cry baby hormone today.

I was just watching a birthing video, and started to cry when the mother described her story and used similar words I would use. She said, "I made it through the birth because I knew that if this little man could go through pain, and the unknown, that I would be there along side him". Ahh it just seemed so powerful. I had to stop the DVD and cry.

I feel that little Adrayn is the one that has the challenge ahead. He is the one that has to make the choice on when to "take the plunge", and he is the one that will be smashed (I assumed a tad painfully) through this little entrance into a big, bright, cold, and unknown place. All I have to do is deal with the pain... everything else is known to me.

 
I think I will enjoy this beautiful day by taking a nice walk. Thinking positive thoughts, of a happy, healthy birth. The days are numbered that I  have the power to protect you, as I now can with you tucked safely in my womb. I think I will appreciate every second that I have left.


I should end this before I start to cry again... what a roller coaster!

Mucho Love!